Sometimes the song just says it better:

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
and wipe away the crimson stains
“dull the nails that still remain”

More and more I need you now,
I owe you more each passing hour
the battle between grace and pride
I gave up not so long ago

So steal my heart and take the pain
and wash the feet and cleanse my pride
take the selfish, take the weak,
and all the things I cannot hide

take the beauty, take my tears
the sin-soaked heart and make it yours
take my world all apart
take it now, take it now

and serve the ones that I despise
speak the words I can’t deny
watch the world I used to love
fall to dust and thrown away

I look beyond the empty cross
forgetting what my life has cost
so wipe away the crimson stains
“dull the nails that still remains”

so steal my heart and take the pain
take the selfish, take the weak
and all the things I cannot hide
take the beauty, take my tears
take my world apart, take my world apart
I pray, I pray, I pray
take my world apart

- Jars of Clay, World’s Apart

I had the pleasure of taking my children to Lego Land without leaving my house. Google has taken street view to a whole new level: http://maps.google.com/trike/

It’s 8:15 PM. My wife is in bed, fast asleep. I have worked almost 9 hours. I fixed breakfast, lunch, and dinner. The sink is piled with dishes. The laundry is overflowing in the hallway. I got off work to drive Caedmon straight to Boy Scouts (with the 3 year old), which was 3 hours of my evening. The living room is the disaster that my kids left before heading out. The carpet in all the rooms needs vacuuming.  I had to spank the 8 year due to his complete lack of respect and informing me multiple times that he could do things his way and make his own rules. Needless to say, I will not be working out.

This is not to paint my wife in a bad light. She is an excellent wife and I miss her. The pregnancy and hyperemesis leaves her feeling like a nasueated zombie all day. I am ready to call in the chastity belt after this one! I feel so bad for her, because she is absolutely miserable. And there is nothing I can do about it. I hate feeling so exhausted and disempowered.